of tracing paper and crayola pens

i'm really pretty glad.
i'm glad because i like things to be out in the open.
and because in that way, there's no need for pretending, for guessing. i like it. i like it that i've made up my mind on how i wanna take things from here.

i'm inhaling second hand smoke that's wafting into my study from the neighbours upstairs. seriously, don't they ever GO TO WORK? in the day they play pool (i know because they're so bad at it the balls bounce off the table and onto the floor. the sound is..), in the night, they sing on their home karaoke sets/have rowdy parties/talk loudly on their cellphones. where on earth do they get the money to finance their chain smoking/pool playing/party having/phone using?

i should go talk to them, and learn something.

the parents aren't coming back on the 18th.): smth to do with them going to hongkong or smth. (speaking of which , i haven't been to that place since primary 3.) i do want them to come back.
i mean, now that ming and i are more than capable of living independently and minding our own daily affairs, it's not an issue that they're in shanghai. it's just that it's kinda quiet without them around. oh well. but i guess that's the way life is for us until the father retires.
in fact, maybe it's a good thing.if we saw one another every day, we'd probably end up taking one another for granted eventually. and i think that taking someone who cares for granted, is one the worst things you can do.
haha and i'll probably be less inclined to update them on my life. hahahaha. which, is quite hilarious, cus i think they're coming to the realisation (slowly, for my dad) that i'm 19 this year and life isn't just about my best friend not talking to me, or about failing my math paper, or about being afraid to sleep alone that night. and they're realising that i do know more that i let out. (: hahaha while my dad struggles with that, my mum's adapting pretty well. in fact, i think she enjoys it. she always has that smirk on her face. when she can't help it, she'll laugh or push me for more details. i'm guessing she went through pretty much the same things, that's why. she's just giving adult-sounding, restrictive advice so my dad wouldn't die of anxiety. she's also definitely enjoying the fact that my dad seems to be suffering when i talk about things he was probably planning to keep from me till i'm like 30 or smth. HAHAHA.
whatever it is, i'm really thankful for them.

gosh i just read the papers and food supply shortages is an issue in many countries right now. the things happening around us seem so apocalyptic. or maybe i was just ignorant when i was younger, and never really paid attention to things that were happening anywhere other than to my immediate surroundings.
no matter what, it really is worrying.

posted by kallynn @ 12:47 PM